I'm tired...

I'm not sleepy.

I'm tired of not practicing.

I've been so wrapped-up in contemplating new exciting practices that I haven't allowed myself the space to actually do it.

So... I'm fed up.

I decided to create this zaadz account because it is the latest on my list of new practices that I've convinced myself that I need to be a part of.  I'm too emabarrased to get into what ideas I've been intrigued by, so I won't mention them unless I try first and have empirical data to show for it.

By those rules I can therefore write about this...  I am writing in my zaadz blog.  I've been involved in web development in one way or another since I was fifteen, and I never had the guts to make my own personal web-page.  The excuses were always easy to come by: "i don't need to prove myself to anyone" pretty much sums up how I got away from exploring my voice.

I'm ready to confront myself now...  in any way, shape, or form... as many times as it takes.

The application to get into zaadz as a newbie is strikingly genuine--I mean it's tear-jerking:  inspirational quotes, challenges, short-essay questions.  The project's goal is to change the world... it's in the mission statement...  we just joke around about it where I work--but it's in print here.  Genuine bold steps in business are responded by bold allies in the guise of customers.

In these fields we contribute as much as we consume if not more so.  We practice the art and science of practicing.